Failing God

I wrestled for many years with a deep shame from being fired by a church. Failing at a ministry position is tricky.  It is usually not a case of job descriptions and qualifications, but rather a personal issue. Ministry wasn’t just a task for me.  It wasn’t just something that I got a diploma for…

Home Again

As I slipped into the back, the speaker had already begun. I can’t remember the name of the class that night, but as I walked in she was telling a story about the Holy Spirit.  Her eyes lit up as she recounted her adventures of hearing His voice so easily and simply, and how she…

Being Seen

Being Seen It had been a super rough season and I could feel myself slipping back into survival mode. I wanted to be “fine”, but I was not.  Inside I was raging, and aching, and sad.  Just so sad.  I felt like I was missing out in life, like I’d lost my chance, and I…

Throwing Paint

As my heart becomes more awakened, so do my fears.  And alongside the attempts to step out and risk again, to live daringly, I have faced a swarm of lies reminding me to sit down.  What if they see me?  What if I’m not good enough?  What if they don’t like what they see?  I am…